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Its actually day 3, but this is a make up insert because I didn’t write anything yesterday. Ok, let’s get right into it.
Current side effects are just headaches before bed. I didn’t have much to eat yesterday. I had a tuna fish salad and boiled eggs. I could hardly finish a small bowl. I didn’t feel hungry so I skipped lunch and had an apple later in the day. I started feeling hungry around 7h30pm. I fell into temptation and bought a whopper, medium fries and medium Miranda. I don’t feel bad but I need more discipline.
I’ve been exercising moderately from Wednesday (Day 1) so this morning (day 3) I was so tempted to weigh myself and so I did. Turns out I lost 1.4kg am so happy . I initially weighed 95.5 am now down to 94.1kg.
Am excited about this journey. Can’t wait for more great results.
It’s been a week since my last Weigh in, so I am officially at the end of my second week - WOOOOOO!!! It has been such a crazy week: Still putting my new townhouse together, and first week back at work after the Christmas break. It has been utter chaos.
I have had a pretty lame week of effort this week, and I just feel exhausted. I haven’t exercised nearly as much as I should have, and I have absolutely STRUGGLED to eat enough, despite having Tony Ferguson shakes which are supposed to make it easier. My diet this week has compromised (per day): 1x instant coffee, 1x skinny cafe latte, 1x piece of fruit, 2x chicken kebabs (the ones on a stick) and half a dinner plate of crunchy asian salad. Absolutely appalling. I have been drinking a tonne of water though. And I feel so guilty about my diet this week. No surprise that I was mega constipated by Thursday, so I had to take a laxative. The aftermath was hell.
Exercise consisted of many trips up and down stairs, as well as madly trying to get this house in order. I feel super guilty about this too, because I am meant to be making a really big effort.
One thing I have been doing (which I really need to stop doing) is weighing myself daily; in the mornings, naked, after going to the toilet. For the first few days this week, I was losing 500g a day. But the last three days I have gained 100g a day. If I look at the grand scheme of the week, it’s great but these small gains have me feeling down. I knew this would happen, though - I would reach a point where I feel sad about results. And I really did this to myself by weighing every day, so no more of that! haha
I have felt a lot of guilt this week, and perhaps I have just expected that I could do everything 100% without considering how much I have actually taken on. I definitely know that being back at work has been WAY more challenging than I expected, and I perhaps need to plan this a lot better. Set alarms for food. Plan ahead etc...
In any case, I am currently sitting at 91.6kg, so I am still down 1.4kg from last week, and 3.9kg in total. I had hoped for bigger numbers, especially in the first 2 weeks. I am not feeling the energy I did the first 2 days, though my appetite is suppressed. A loss is a loss, and I am still happy with that. I may consider asking for 40mg at the end of the month though.
Sorry if this post is a bit glum. I am feeling very tired and flat, but I will work to pull myself out of this funk. Hope everyone is having a wicked week xx
start weight 71.1
Current weight 66
Goal weight 57
30 mg D
My first 5 days on D I dropped to 67.1
Then I was stuck on that weight for 2 days then went back to 67.3
I had my period so I was like okay maybe that’s why . I stopped weighing my self every day and I thought that’s it once a week is enough I didn’t want to become paranoid so I waited for day 5 of my period and jumped back on the scale and it was 66 kg
So I lost 5.1kg in nearly 2 weeks
My next weight in is due in 2 days
I try to go to the gym everyday
Walk on the treadmill for 2 km
Then do 30 mins of weights
I try to do 2 cardio classes a week
I don’t want to push my self too much because I don’t have an appetite to eat much
I have 1 to 2 weet bix with fruits and almond milk every morning with coffee
I will have a cup of hospital grade sustegen
Dinner will be a small amount of what ever I cooked that day ( I don’t cook fatty food and try to keep clean as much as I can ) to keep up with my 3 kids demands lol
I have struggled with sever depression and anxiety for the last 2 years
Gained 12 kg
I just want to feel good about my self and that will help boost my self esteem
I don’t sleep enough
I get heart palpitations
Thirsty ( I try to drink lots of water )
But overall it’s not too bad
I don’t get cravings of sugar and fatty food like I use to before I took D
This is my first time on D
I wish everyone best of luck on their journey
Last night I didn’t end up taking the 1/2 tablet of OTC sleeping aid, but did manage to get 7hrs 3min sleep (according to Fitbit).
I still woke up at 5am to take D, but have found that I am not feeling a huge boost in energy. I think I am probably a little more awake? I don’t know lotl On the plus side, I am not as sleepy in the afternoon, haven’t got a dry mouth, and my headache seems to be subsiding (I have had it since Tuesday).
My food intake has been pretty good today, though I haven’t managed my morning and afternoon snacks. I don’t really feel like eating, but I do feel hunger pains if I go too long without food - weird I bought an easy dinner for tonight: Crunchy Asian Salad and BBQ chook.
I got the keys to my new house this morning, and had to take my dog to the vet (he just wasn’t himself. Apparently it is just a tummy bug... phew!). I have also been out and about running errands today, and haven’t managed to do any exercise yet. I have 2x flights of stairs in my new house, and 1x in my current house, and I managed to reach my stair ascent goals today on my Fitbit. My muscles have calmed down since yesterday, so I will attempt to do another Fitbit Coach workout this evening before dinner. The next few days will see me packing and moving house - so that will take care of my exercise (as much as I hate moving).
I have been relatively motivated despite my low energy today. The only thing I have felt bad about today so far is not having done my exercise yet.
OH! I almost forgot! I decided to give myself an END DATE GOAL of 1st July 2019 to reach my goal weight. It’s a pretty optimistic goal seeing as I need to lose 34.5 kg to be at my goal weight (so, an average of 1.4 kg per week). The strange thing is, my body fat percentage is 36.5% - Does that mean 36.5% of my current weight is body fat? I mean, 36.5% of 95.5 kg is 34.8 kg, so that makes a bit of sense, and would put me at about 60.7 kg. But wouldn’t that be a loss of ALL body fat, and don’t we still need a percentage of body fat? Also, my BMI says that 50-55kg is my ideal range - I know BMI is notoriously lower than it should be, but still! When I used to weight 68 kg, I was pretty happy, though I knew I could really lose around 5kg more. I dunno - food for thought I guess. I might do some reading on it.
I will check in again later and add to this post before bed tonight xx
END OF DAY UPDATE:
I didn’t manage to get a workout in tonight as I was busy packing for the move (not my favourite pass time lol). Earlier today, I was wondering about body fat percentages, and what is considered to be a healthy percentage. Well... I WORKED IT OUT!!! so here goes!
1. First, at 95.5kg, I know that my body fat % is 42.7%. That tells me that 42.7% of my 95.5kg Weight equates to 40.8kg.
2. Second, Given that 42.7% of Weight is body fat, that means that I would weigh 54.7kg with 0% body fat - but obviously, that’s not possible.
3. After searching through multiple academic papers, It would seem that for me (35 year old Woman), a healthy range of 20-25% body fat is recommended.
4. To work out what my ideal weight would be, given that I would weigh 54.7kg with 0% body fat and knowing what my healthy body fat range is, I can assume that my final weight would comprise 20-25% body fat, and 75-80% body (I’m just going to refer to everything that isn’t body fat as “body” ). So here is my calculation:
At 20% body fat:
y = 54.7/0.80
y = 68.38kg
At 25% body fat:
y = 54.7/0.75
y = 72.93kg
(*y represents my unknown goal weight.)
So, broadly, my ideal weight is a range from 68-73kg, which is a FAR CRY from the 50-55kg that most weight charts suggest for my height. And that’s totally fine, because... everyone is built differently. I generally build a lot of muscle than average, and my frame is larger than other women of my height. Also, this calculation will change as I build even more muscle.
This also means that I actually need to aim to lose around 26.6kg, instead of the 45.5-35.5kg I initially thought I needed to lose.
Anyway, I thought that was interesting to share. Xx
I had some pretty solid plans last night to not just roll over in bed and go back to sleep after taking my tablet at 5am, but to get up and walk my dog. Alas, I was so tired that I just went back to sleep. But to be fair, I was just as tired when I re-awoke at 7:30 ish, and the tiredness was gone after about 15min. Damn... I probably should have pushed through and went for the walk at 5am. You live and learn
Although I got about 6hrs sleep last night (not ideal, but not the worst) I actually don’t have as much energy as yesterday. My body is quite sore from yesterday’s HIIT workout, so perhaps that is contributing to it. Given my low energy and sore body, I think I might leave the Fitbit Coach workout for today and take my dog for his walk this evening. It’s about 1000 degrees C in Brisbane at the moment, but hopefully it’ll be cooler later on. Maybe I can source some beginners Pilates instructions, I hear that Pilates is fairly beneficial! I will be moving house in the next few days, so I will be set for reaching exercise goals on those days haha
I have been reading over quite a few blogs on this website, and not only are they super informative and motivational but they have made me really consider the <1000 cals I consumed yesterday. Food is fuel for my body, and too little fuel is going to hinder me in reaching my goals. Today I have focused on reaching calorie targets through healthy food, and keeping meals small but frequent. I’m still pretty bloated, and I have just realised that I might be a little constipated. I am still waiting for the elusive PMS, and I really wish it would just hurry up already lol
I binge-read Leigh’sgottalottolose’ blog this morning, and am wondering how she is doing now - 3 years on from her last post. I loved reading her blog, and am wishing her all the best.
I am using the heat of the day to set up an excel spreadsheet that I can transfer my food and exercise logs to from my phone apps. I want to be able to print off my logs for my monthly check-ins with my doctor. It also makes me feel productive and in control, which is my favourite mood lol
I will probably check in again tonight - I am finding these blog entries therapeutic, and they help me put my thought in order. I hope everyone on this site has a successful and happy day today X
END OF DAY UPDATE:
Well, I didn’t end up looking up or doing any Pilates, HOWEVER! I did take my dog for a 2 km, 30 min walk this afternoon Fitbit tells me that I managed to burn 239 calories, plus my pup REALLY enjoyed it. I would ideally like to do this every other day, in between days of doing a HIIT workout (or similar). I am also hoping that the more I do this, the longer I can exercise and the stronger I can become
I also binge-read another blog entry this afternoon, and found it really inspiring. It definitely boosted my motivation!
I finally finished off my exercise & food diary spreadsheet. I might change it a bit from where it is now, but it would really only be for aesthetics. It’s set up to automatically highlight problematic results, and generate statistic based on data input. I will create a new tab for each week, and each weekly diary entry is designed to print easily onto 1 page so I can print them off at the end of each month to take to my doctor. I use other mobile apps (Fitbit, and the app for my smart scales) to keep more detailed records through the day. I am just transferring the numbers over at the end of the day. I am also considering taking weekly progress photos - though I will need to get a move on with my first one tomorrow! This is a sample of my first week so far:
I am going to take 1/2 an OTC sleeping aid tonight, and will again set my alarm for 5am. Hopefully if I get a good night sleep, I’ll feel better tomorrow. I hope everyone has had an amazing day! Xx
Current Weight: 95.5 kg
First Goal: 90.0 kg
End Goal: 65.0 kg
Today is the first day of my second duromine journey. I blamed my last failure (2 years ago) on getting glandular fever, but I think that was only true in part - I don’t think I took the opportunity as seriously as I should have. Too many excuses. I need to take responsibility for my current condition and stop trying to convince myself otherwise.
I wouldn’t call this attempt a “New Years resolution”, as I have been preparing since before Christmas. I bought myself a new Fitbit Charge 3, a set of body composition scales and a new exercise mat. Yesterday I saw my doctor, and requested a new script for duromine and set my alarm for 5am today.
I woke at 5am, took my first tablet, then went back to sleep until it kicked in. I remembered how disrupted my sleep was last time I took duromine, so I wanted to take it early. Here is a breakdown of observations from my first day:
Today being the first day, my motivation has been high. I have made some goals for the week, and have tried to set myself up so I am well planned for days when my motivation isn’t so high (we’ll have to see how it works, because I know those days will come ). Fingers crossed my mood stays this high for at least the next couple of days!
I have actually been quite surprised by how level I have felt today. Don’t get me wrong, I definitely felt more energised, but not in the crazy way I did last time. I was a little jittery as soon as the tablet started kicking in, but it passed in no time. I did do some early chores without feeling too bothered, which is always a positive.
I was pleased to see that Fitbit has provided quite a few more additions; one of which it the Fitbit Coach that provides a few basic training programs (for free) and a plethora of more interesting/varied programs (through monthly premium membership) that can be done at home without any equipment. I don’t plan on signing up for gym membership, so I opted to sign up for monthly premium membership, and did a 16min HIIT workout in the morning. It was harder than I expected, and I couldn’t manage the burpees through fear of vomiting, but I did finish it and burnt 131 kcal! I expect that with more practice I will be able to move on to more strenuous programs. I also took my dog to the unleashed park (“puppy park”) and chose to jog up my stairs at home rather than walk - basically trying to make better choices.
I started Tony Ferguson today. One of my big problems is not eating enough calories most days, slowing my metabolism, then binge eating when I am finally proper starving. It’s not been intentional, but just because I don’t always feel hungry or I get too busy. I had my shakes today, an apple, glass of ginger beer, then some leftover mushrooms/potato bake/mango chicken with an Asian salad. In total, I took in 951 kcal (not ideal, a bit on the low side) but I did eat reasonably regularly and spread out across the day - small victories I guess!
I have had a LOT of water today, which is not unusual for me, but because I am logging it I realised that I am drinking around 2.5-3 L of water every day. I guess at least I have been getting that right! Haha
Well, none really. I have had a mild headache which kicked in at around 3pm, but it wasn’t unmanageable, plus I am awaiting the dreaded period. I have had excellent energy levels up until 2:30pm, then I got sleepy. I didn’t nap (I had been enjoying daytime naps during my 2 weeks holiday from work) because I worried it would make sleep more difficult tonight. The sleepiness passed my around 3:30pm, so it wasn’t too bad. I haven’t had a dry mouth, but I do drink a lot of water anyway.
I think it was a pretty successful first day. I am feeling pretty bloated at the moment. Could be upcoming period, but could also be food intolerance which I am also getting investigated through the allergy clinic - after they work out what keeps giving me hives. I am planning on getting up at 5am tomorrow morning again to take my tablet and walk my dog before the heat of the day kicks in. I also plan on doing another Fitbit workout, perhaps a longer one. The following is the full list of my body composition stats, mostly for my own records. I am hoping to keep my weigh-ins to Saturday mornings each week, but knowing me I will be tempted to check more frequently.
Starting Weight: 95.5 kg
Current Weight: 95.5 kg
First Goal: 90.0 kg
End Goal: 65.0 kg
Lost: 0.0 kg
BMR: 1962 kcal
AMR: 2590 kcal
Body Fat %: 42.7 %
Hydration %: 39.3 %
Muscle %: 30.1 %
Bone %: 2.3 %
After days of being pestered by my mother over the phone, I decide to step on the scales to see how bad the damage is; the scales return an error - I guess that's me off the hook. Not that I would ever share my weight with her. I'm 37, not 7. My weight, my life.
Was it really my life? I stop, I breathe, memories flood back to how amazing my life used to be and how dumb I was to not see that changing until it was too late.
I book in with my GP who immediately recommends surgery - it's the new "easy fix" - I explain that every time I have needed "keyhole surgery" I've ended up being completely opened up and required weeks of recovery afterwards. I don't have the luxury of being able to afford the time off.
He then suggests Duromine. Hesitant, I agree that at this point, that's my best option. He asks me to step on the scales - 160kg! The last time I stepped on scales was 12 months ago and then I weighed 147kg. I feel nauseated just thinking about it. No wonder I don't have a partner or my own family (no children). My GP can see that thoughts are speeding through my mind - he knows I have bipolar tendencies and asks if I'm still seeing my psychologist, I confirm that I see her at least once a month.
Today is my second day on duromine. I haven't lost my appetite, but I am thirstier, a lot less tired and a little more motivated. Sleep doesn't happen at normal times anymore - hence this post.
I can't share with family or friends so this blog will be my accountability on my journey from 160kg to 95kg.
Week 6 - Done!
Well, that seems to have just flown by!
Once again, it has been a full on week! This week we finally did the big parts of the move, such as move the beds, the couches and the cutlery. Why didn't we think to get plastic utensils?! I may not have an appetite, but a girl needs to eat!
I decided to see the doctor for my weekly weigh in on the Friday, as Saturday was the final moving day, and there just was absolutely no time to see the doctor then.
No gym this week, but still healthy eating! I know - I am the poster girl for a successful Duromine journey! Well, more like the poster was thrown in the bin by the marketing exec...
Good old Mrs Monthly came along this week, and I wasn't expecting much change in my weight. We just battened down the hatches and steered clear of the dreaded chocolate! Oh man, I miss shovelling chocolate into my pie hole without a 2nd thought!
I'll cut it short - I reached my first mini milestone! I have been hoping to reach the 75kg mark, even being happy with 75.999999kg. Except my body decided to do one better! Friday I weighed in at 74.9kg! I also managed to get down to 73cm around my waist, which takes me to 1cm away from my waist goal!
Yesterday I decided to put on a pair of jeans I haven't worn in about 2 years. I did try them on before my Duromine adventure, and I couldn't get them past mid-thigh. Yesterday, they zipped and buttoned up without any muffin top! This was truly a win in my eyes!
I will admit that I am not looking forward to my next weigh in. Moving house is horrible, and your meals just don't make sense. Friday for lunch was a McDonalds cheese burger and small fries, dinner was a little bit of broth and a couple bites of my udon noodles, the chicken it came with and 3 mini spring rolls, Saturday lunch was a burger and chips, and dinner was nachos. But today is a new day, and I have been and will be sticking to my normal meal plan.
Keep up the good work everyone! You are all fantastic in your own weigh... way!
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