Scared to Succeed

Discussion in 'My Experience with Duromine' started by Linda Brown, Aug 6, 2014.

  1. Linda Brown

    Linda Brown Member
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    I've been watching these forums over the last two weeks and finally decided to log in and post something.

    I'm 31 years old, no children - I suffer from chronic migraines and my diet has never been 100% perfect, but I never considered it a problem. My weight stacked on because of medication. Then all of a sudden your so big you can't exercise or walk properly. This is the kickstart I needed, lose a few kg's first so I can walk properly and hope everything falls in place. The perfect fairy tale.

    I want to keep a record of this, and most definitely get advice to help me along.

    Starting weight was 117.4kgs
    Current weight is 107.9kgs

    Week one - I've pretty much never felt so alive. My adrenalin is running, I'm wide awake, talking a little too fast and running on fumes. I didn't feel hungry at all, which is a totally unique and foreign experience to me as I usually eat 3 decent size meals a day - and I never skip. But the excess energy is great, taking the dog for longer walks, going to the park. My mouth is dry, but I keep forgetting to drink water - which is also odd because I usually have at least 2 litres before lunch every day. Not sleeping very well, but waking up feeling very refreshed. Fruit for lunch, and for dinner usually a meat/veg combo but could only stomach a few mouthfuls. My weight dropped a kg a day, but I'm pretty sure most of it was water/fluid.

    Week two - So this is the current week. I think the sleep deprivation is finally catching up. I can go to bed about 11-12 and sleep for about 6 hours. I don't feel as refreshed as I did last week, but I'm not tired either. My skin has also decided to break out, it's actually embarrasing how red and blotchy my face is. But I can only assume it's the toxins exiting my system. I've been eating carrot and celery sticks, cherry tomatoes and a few grissini at lunch - for dinner I'm not hungry so I just pick at fruit and veges. I know it's wrong, but I feel physically sick. I have exercised every single day though which is great. But my skin is horrible and I'm feeling nausea all day long. I think the hardest part is knowing I can't give up. Because if I give up old habits will come right back. I'm thinking the best way to tackle this is to keep the fresh veges for as long as possible. I might try throwing some meat/protein in 3-4 times a week. Even if it's a few bites.

    So week one, awesome. Week two, not so great. But the thing is, I've actually learnt something. I've learnt that I'm not going to give up. Seeing the first 10kg slide away just made me more determined to make this work. So I just need to add more into my diet, but not overdose. I need to keep drinking that water, even if it's small sips. I need to keep getting out there every day even if it's only for 30 mins and do some sort of exercise.

    I wonder if week two has really been that bad, or have I just been expecting more. Week 1, I was 10kg down, week 2 nothing so far. I don't want to, nor would it be healthy to lose that every week. So it's just a mind over matter game. I'm scared, confused, and worried that this might not work. But I have to try.
     
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    Hi Linda,

    Welcome to the forum and we'll done for taking that first step :)congratulations on your weight loss, that's an amazing loss!!

    I would definitely advised to try and add some sort of protein into most of your meals whether it be in the form of meat or nuts. This will keep you fuller for longer but also give your body the nutrient it needs :)

    I got into a bad habit of not drinking enough water but now I make sure I always have a full water bottle on my desk at work and on the weekends one in bag. that way when ever I feel like water it there at my finger tips.

    I can also relate to the breakouts, I usually have clear skin and although I have nothing major I do have a few little red spots.

    I am also on my second week and determined to see this through no matter what. I haven't weighed myself this week yet but like you really feel the mental game that it is. I find posting on here helps, I can just let it out and know that there is probably someone feeling the same way or know that someone will reply with positive energy to keep encouraging me. The ladies on here are great, whether you have 10 kgs to lose or 50 kgs, we are sort of all in it together.
     
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  3. Linda Brown

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    Hi Kayla,
    Thanks for replying :)
    I think that's the part that I'm struggling with most is my diet. It's hard to add things in when you aren't feeling like anything, but I agree with the protein. I'm thinking of adding a few small pieces of chicken into whatever I eat at night. I try to eat banana's when I'm not hungry for anything else. It's body shock though, because I've always had a great relationship with food.
    Water is really strange, I always drink quite a bit, but since taking the tablets you just forget - So I keep the bottle close to me now at all times.
    I'm glad someone else is noticing the few changes I am. .
    Onwards and upwards from here :)
     
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    wow you doing gr8. I too struggle to eat all my calories a day, and I know we need to force ourselves everyday to eat , which is weird as you said you had a gr8 relationship with food, I am the same i nthe that regard, we need to start eating all our meals or snacks, so that once we off D we can just carry on as normal otherwise we are going to land up eating more calories than we supposed to again and get fat all over again, and that is what we do not want right? I have found that since I have been eating brekkie earlier and forcing myself to eat it, does help me to exercise for longer , D gives me a buzz and energy just being stationary, but food gives us fuel to actually move and build stamina for everyday life and body and brain function, so it is not good that we preventing it from happening naturally , it is good we are getting rid of our OLD bad habits but we must not take on NEW bad habits by not fueling our bodies ,easier said than done, I know , loads of wisdom I write to to you but cannot seem to get this right everyday myself , lol ..Thinking of you in the struggle as I know it so well, and it is not helping my weight loss either , soon I AM going to plateau if i continue this new bad habit of depriving my body , we can win this battle and find balance again , well done on your huge loss, my goodness, I have never known or read of anyone losing that much in one week, amazing !! ,and it is gr8 to know your body can shed so much .. may the rest of your week be a good one ,reaching the next goal on your journey..
     
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    It's so nice to know that others are feeling what I feel. I know that people are looking at me and wondering where the 117kgs ever fit. I'm only quite small 164cms - and I've carried the weight well, but is carrying weight well something I want written on my tombstone.. Absolutely not. Diet and eating is so important, but 6 meals a day seems so much especially when I'm struggling at the 1-2 range. I think the only veggie route is not sustainable for me and that I have to get some protein in there somewhere. Tonight I'm going to have chicken tenderloins, seasoned with a little pepper and some roast pumpkin. No matter how hard I try that will never sound as good as a roast dinner, but it's a start. I guess this first 2 weeks has been all about trialling things and seeing what works. I am sure food is something everyone struggles with. Maybe everyone has some easy to share recipes?
     
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    I'm like you, i carry my weight well. If i actually tell anyone I weigh over 100 kgs there like you don't. .or if I say I need to lose 45kgs they think I'm joking or being too extreme.
    In terms for food and protein I'll have chicken(only meat I really eat) and it'll be around half the size of my Palm. So pretty tiny but at least I finish it. The other thing I am really focusing on is eating slowly so that I allow that full feeling to occur (definitely occurs with the duromine). But normally I eat fast and will get to the very end of a meal or go back for second straight away and never allow myself to know where my cut off point is, I would always just feel stuffed when I finished if that make sense.
     
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    Wow, Linda, seems you know everything and I can't even think of what to add to your plan. Yes, proteins here come in the first place. Personally I love chicken and turkey, so I was cooking (boiling mostly) breasts. And then inventing recepies using it and veggies... let's see we had a thread with recepies somewhere on the forum... Try THIS
    Try different products at a time. Like one day add - an egg to your breakfast, if you feel a bit hungry - a small piece of meat for lunch with salad. Monitor your state and try different foods every day. Soon you will find your perfect diet. I wish you that.
    Have a great weight loss! ;)
     
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    I think we all have fears and doubts .....( I am scared that once I'm of D I will go back to my bad eating habits )
    take one day at a time and if we do fall don't let that take you back to your old habits....
    Be proud of each goal you meet...
    This site is great where you can say how you feel and not be judged..
    Good luck
     
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    its been a while since i have been thin! i have 11 weeks to go to lose the bulk of my weight (20k) i am in my second week, my fear is i am going so well and im scared its all going to stop! do ask my doctor to up it to 30 in month 2?? duramine has changed my relationship with food and that's been the most pleasing thing for me and the satisfaction of weight loss has made me happy :) going back to my old habits (eating) is not on my radar( yet) i am really enjoying my food, eating lots of fruit, chicken,salad, i have no desire for sweets, oily food. i must must must drink more water.starting tomorrow.

    loved reading everyone's stories and experiences its been a big help, duramine can vary a lot from person to person
     
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    Wow! I have had an incredible 24 hours and just have to share. I've settled into a pretty comfortable diet now. 5 meals a day, small but nice and nutritious - I've added in fruit and nuts, I find banana's are the best and for dinner usually a small portion of chicken with pumpkin, carrot. My husbands joined me now too, so whilst he doesn't need to lose a single kilo, he is just eating a larger portion and it tastes great. Best of all, yesterday on the scales I found out I had lost 2.2kg. Yesterday I went for an hour long power walk with hubby and our dog. It was incredible, I felt so great. But the best thing happened just before that.
    I took a secret before photo the day I started taking Duromine. I was so humiliated by it, I emailed it to my own personal email before deleting it of my phone. As I was putting my exercise clothes on yesterday hubby suggested I take a photo now to see how far I'd come. I don't even know how he knew about the first secret photo, but he did. So I took the photo and side by side. I want to share it with you guys but am so embarassed by the first photo I'm not sure if I should. But WOW! I just needed to see that change and I'm motivated even more. I will never ever ever go back to that person. This just feels far too good!!
     
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    post it !!! you can be proud, and you NOT that person in the first pic any more , who knows you might just inspire us to share ours with you too Linda Brown .. well done for finding a blance with food and exercise that is working for you , ! ;)
     
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    What the heck! I should be proud of this not ashamed. I should also point out that the top I am wearing I purchased just over a month ago. It was an XL and I really needed an XXL but I was too embarrassed, so I just got the smaller size. It didn't fit very well, I find being overweight that tops don't seem to go down low enough because they're holding in your stomach. Now I could stretch that top out. But the best part is the support. I work as a travel agent and in my office of 5 staff, everyone has always harped on at me about my weight, now they can't stop complimenting. This is all the inspiration I need :) Needless to say, very proud of myself so far today.
     

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    Wow! Incredible change Linda, really!
    You look so tightened and healthy! It IS visible. Congrats! Now I imagine, you won't take off that top till next weekend)))) (joking) :D:D:D
     
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    WOW WOW WOW !!! huge transformation already !!!Linda, you go girl !!!! ...keep going ... and take in all those compliments at work, good for you ..and thank you for sharing these pics with us, I KNOW IT COULD NOT HAVE BEEN AN EASY THING TO DO :)
     
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    Well Done. You look great! cant wait to see the end result!
     
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    WELL DONE LINDA!!!! DEFINITELY MOTIVATION FOR ME..... THERE IS REALLY A DIFFERENCE IN THE PICS THAT YOU POSTED.... WELL DONE!!
     
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    Thanks to everyone for their kind comments. Still a long way to go, but I'm on this path of determination now and unwilling to stop. I have laughed a lot at people over the years for their diet fads and crazes. Most of which go to the extreme forgoing any sort of enjoyment to look a certain way. But this weight loss is me changing my life for the better. I still enjoy the sweeter things in life, but just not as much as before - before I was overdosing on food, now I'm using food to survive. I'm learning to say no.
    A lot of us would come from an era where we weren't allowed to leave the table until our plate was finished.... Solution - serve a smaller plate. It's the little things that are making the biggest difference. Your forum helped me more than I've helped myself, I just can't believe how much it's changed me in a fortnight. Thank you for giving us a place where we can talk openly about the things that weigh us down - no pun intended :)
     
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    All I can say is WOW!!!
     
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    :) Don't stop!!! Your progress in your photos is so amazzzzzing! You go girl!!!
     
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    Thanks everyone :)
    Still working hard at it, this is a lifestyle change not a short-term one. I've been out walking every day and then yesterday something extraordinary happened... I actually started running. I'm not sure our little puppy knew what was going on, mum's always the slow one but not anymore. 3 weeks down on Duromine and I'm feeling incredible!
     
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